Liberalism is already struggling all around the world, and that’s why it’s important to fight for it especially in the Middle East.

The rise of the new anti-liberalism groups in the Middle East is alarming, and the new wave of giving those groups a platform and space within society and as countries taking easy, and what’s concerning me is that in the past these groups used to be more direct with what they believe in, for example in the past those conservatives and religious groups used to say that wearing a jeans ins forbidden and sinful thing to wear, that women who dress up like  western women are sinful and they go after feminists like Nawal El saadawi and others like her.   But now they are coming back with new tactics and lately I have noticed that the new campaigns has no direct attack and no direct message, for example “look away from every forbidden thing, keep your eyes shut from the sinful acts, and attacking movies not by the name but going after the actors or people behind the movie, or going to court and filling lawsuits against movies and to ban networks like Netflix and YouTube  to shut-down those platform, according to them it’s hurting society manners and making sure to do it with a calm soft voice” there are campaigns everywhere in the middle east called “Restoring Society’s manners” banning artist for their lyrics or actors for their movies , using that banner in the front to fight liberals and depriving them from their basic rights to dream and to achieve their dreams. 

This “Restoring society’s manners” campaign is dangerous because it’s happing in front of the government’s eye and authorities are even issuing permits for those campaigns or standing aside when women, feminists, or liberals are being attacked by those religious groups fearing them because they are half of society and to stand aside is better than getting into trouble for a small group in society that has no power and can’t shake the systems. To see campaigns in the streets up and high written on them “ immersing yourself in forbidden things will get you into depression and anxiety” and “ shedding your eyes from seeing forbidden things for it keep other’s eye’s away from your own( Maharim) in Arabic means your sisters, mothers , aunties and grandmothers” and it’s hidden so well that it doesn’t state directly what to look at or not to look at and coming from a religious party what does that mean is according to your own interpretation if you think a woman is wearing a tight jeans or a short dress is sin that means looking at hear means that someone else is allowed to harass your relatives because that woman is sinful, leaving the door open to other’s interpretations is dangerous specially in the middle east, when a religious party hang banners like that it means everything against their believe is a SIN, and what makes me wonder who gave them the approval and who actually issues permits to hang those banners is showing how double standard the governments are, because on one side and  for the western world governments in the middle east shows that they support progressive ideas and on the other side governments are allowing those groups to run society on a daily bases.  

As a liberal women what do I do with you making me a minster or prime minster or becoming the house speaker or a head of a governmental sector, what’s the point of giving me all those positions, without giving me the responsibility and the freedom of my privet life, what do I do with all those high positions without the right of choosing my own fate, if I can’t file for a divorce, when it’s illegal for me as a woman to marry a man from another religion when all men in the middle east are allowed to do so, what do I do with all those high position when I can’t get the citizenship for my children if I marry a man from another country but on the other hand if a man marries a woman from other country his children are allowed to get the citizenship, I can’t get a house for my family if I marry a man from another country, what do I do with all the high positions if I my husband can marry four women without any consent on my behalf even the idea itself doesn’t go with the 21st century, what do I do with all the high positions if I am seen as a second citizen and always waiting for the men to allow to do or don’t. what do I do with my right to vote if the system is only allowing conservatives and religious groups to be candidates in the elections or convincing people through propaganda that liberals are atheists and devil worshipers or they are trained by the foreign intelligence agencies, yes I have the right to vote with these kinds of options it’s a crime against women to vote for those candidates. 

 all the ministries and all the high position means nothing if a liberal woman like me can’t get her daily freedom to run her life according to her point of view. As a liberal woman in the Middle East, what do I do with all those positions if the parliament is occupied by religious and extremely conservative groups? and it became even darker and more gloomy to liberals in my country  since the late prime minister who was a liberal man who believed in economic and social equality between the sexes his famous quote is “Freedom of religion, Education, Health care and Gender Equality ensure good quality of life”, and I will stand against anyone who doesn’t believe in those principles even if you were my brother, sister, mother or father, and I will stand with until the end if you believe in those principles. And since he’s been gone those freedoms are being undermined and day after day those groups who he fought so hard are coming back strongly trying to ban ever since all kind of freedoms, they even went so far to suggested a “ Manners legislation” wanting to ban women from dressing up freely and wanting to control how people live their personal life brining back middle ages principles and day after day I’m seeing banners in the streets addressing sin and some extremely religious quotes and the mosques are more and more talking in their speeches about the liberal principle and how to fight it back and how liberals are sinners and they must be brought down and shut them down. 

The lack of freedom is the lack of life, and this conservative movement wasn’t always active in the past the same way it is now, the middle eastern society was liberal and open minded with a progressive look into the future, until the western countries decided to fight the communism at that time in the middle east just like a lot of countries some of people believed in communism and most of the world started a war against them , and the west convinced our leaders to attack communist with conservative groups and religious groups, basically convincing those groups that communists are atheist and infidels trying to take over the whole middle east to implement atheist laws and to destroy Islam principles and since then those groups managed to take over society and to create a fearful society full of hatred towards the west itself and to create an extreme ideology that anything from the west is atheism and the devil worshipers, and by time the middle east woke-up on a volcano that exploded full of extremism and even those moderate religious groups are against civil rights laws, and the subject “separating religion from state” is a dangers subject in the middle east because you will be labeled as atheist, and even the word secular is forbidden in our society because you will be labeled as theist, so you could get killed or harmed as a warning. 

Finally, history is always moving forward, not backward, history doesn’t wait for those who choose to stay behind, no matter what, especially in this age of information and globalization.   No one ever managed to break history’s wheels from moving; it might look dark now for liberals and women in the Middle East. All I know is that history is always moving forward, even when it look like it is moving backward, the resistance coming from conservatives and extremely religious groups shows that they are trying to stop the evadible, and I am sure that one day willingly or not they will surrender to the truth.

“They said, “You are a savage and dangerous woman. I am speaking the truth. And the truth is savage and dangerous.”  ― Nawal El Saadawi, Woman at Point Zero

ShoroK♥♥

Before you start reading this post, first I want you to watch the new Netflix short series called “Stories of a Generation – with Pope Francis”, And then come back to read the post, believe me, it’ll make sense, Enjoy 

(No one is born hating another person because of the color of his skin, or his background, or his religion, people must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite ) Nelson Mandela

 I chose Nelson Mandela Model because he fought racism and hate with LOVE that later brought people together to heal. Not through division, isolating others to gain political points, and not for social acceptance, he saw people through their hearts and deeds, not colors, backgrounds, and mistakes. I think his model should become part of the educational system all around the world and not just a chapter in the history books. Children everywhere should learn his model, how he was in jail for twenty-seven years, and when he came out, the first thing he did was he asked black people in South Africa to let go of revenge and hatred and to start to heal as a nation. Of course, it wasn’t easy but he managed to end the hate and revenge endless cycle. The way he brought the nation together showed that bringing people together is not impossible it just takes a lot of effort, sacrifice, and the most important thing is letting go of the ego. for while I wanted to write this post because I started noticing a lot of anger and hate is starting to come back all around the world, what makes it more dangerous this time is the technology and social media, so I decided to write this post because I started to forget that even what it looks like doing the right thing in many cases, it may deepen the divide and unconsciously becoming part of the divide by adding fuel to the fire.

I thought to myself when the pandemic hit, what the pandemic is trying to teach me? I started to dig deep inside of me and I realized that I still need to work on my inner anger and rage and trauma, and everyone around the world should take this lesson very series, if covid-19 is making you angrier and pushes you to attack others for no reason that means that this situation is triggering a hidden trauma and hidden scares you thought you got rid of. If it didn’t teach you to be more understanding, less judgmental, and have compassion, then take some time for yourself to heal, we all need to sit down and have a real conversation with ourselves, what do we need to do to make this world a better place, is it by attacking everything that we disagree with?. (which I’m guilty of in the past, thinking that to Fight Racism and Bullying, I need to make people fearful of saying anything, and I thought that the only way to fight racism and injustice is by fight dark with anger and loud voices with loud argument, and point my finger at the person old mistakes making the individual feel outcasted) until life starting to teach me a lesson, that to fight hate with hate and rage and going after what hurts, it will leave you empty from the inside and the world will be full of hurt and pain.

I’m not a saint I still say the F Word (hahahaha, no one can be, Sadly unconsciously I’m guilty of it too thinking that by responding on social media I was doing the right thing, by jumping on hashtags, what I didn’t know is that I was adding fuel to the fire, I used to think to myself “let me make it clear and make sure that the person understands their mistake” with that I didn’t know that I was creating a hostile environment and it didn’t help me or the situation, and without knowing that I was part of the divide, thinking that if I was fighting for the right cause it won’t harm anyone, how can it be wrong?! Right? But the internet is an open space where no one cares if you’re right or wrong what matters is making the topic trending, and driving attention to people behind it, I started to realize that I wasn’t helping. I still write my opinion on social media if the issue is worth it, like what happened to Gorge Floyd, you can’t say that your opinion is adding fuel to the fire, it’s important to raise your voice in these cases all of us should and must, and in many other situations where your voice is needed, but not every hashtag is worth jumping into t create more chaos in the world, also occasionally celebrities try to bring each other down through their millions of followers making them attack others for them and everyone feels like it’s the end of the world if we don’t defend our artist, it’s sad to see that the world is so divided that everything became worth bringing each-others down for and break each-others from the inside.  

 I will not fight evil with darkness because social media amplifies everything, it thrives on our anger and hating one another. A reminder that the algorithm has no feelings, it’s blind, it picks subjects randomly by detecting the topic with most tweets or posts, without separating what’s important and what’s not, the second reason is that every time I’m on social media I start feeling angrier and angrier about the issues in the world, and of the amount of information, the amount of cyberbullying, and when a group of people starts targeting someone rightfully or wrongfully it fills me with all kind of emotions, realizing that those people are using the open space to bring other human being down which is not normal, so many people are committing suicide because of social media and what others are thinking of them. I still use social media to post, like everyone else to follow sport events and tweet about my favorite football team and my daily cup of coffee or my favorite TV show and enjoy 10% positive energy from the people I follow. The most important lesson I learned is that online life is not real life and not fun to be on it all the time, it no longer “what’s happens online stays online” it’s started to become a jungle the big eat the small, and the loudest shades the quite.

  I started educating myself about historical figures who fought injustice through history, people who actually changed the world and I went back in history to Nelson Mandela and Martin Luther King Jr. Sojourner Truth, Maya Angelo and Oprah Winfrey, and I started thinking (to change the real world is not through anger and hashtags and viciously attacking others, it happens through healthy, real-life conversations and by setting around the table and listen to each other, if I can’t change someone’s mind on a subject, then attacking them will not do so) People who truly changed the world didn’t outcast others or stone their attackers but through LOVE and understanding where they come from. I started to ask myself who am I compared to Nelson Mandela, Martin Luther King Jr., Sojourner Truth, Maya Angelo, and Oprah Winfrey. Their struggles and the injustice they faced in their lives are more than anything I saw and will see in my life and thanks to them my life is better, because of their sacrifice the world is a better place, they managed to change history. Earlier in my life, I didn’t believe that anger and frustration would affect me physically, I used to be so angry with the world that I always had fatigue and suffering from spasms and muscle strains. My back injury forced me to relax and to meditate because stress and anxiety was making it worse, so I decided that I will try to do better for myself and the world around me, I want to change the world through love, music Art and kindness, and reduced my participation on online hashtags and I will always ask what’s my intention and why I’m responding, I started to use social media less and less and stop reading what’s in everyone’s mind, most of the time I post and leave, and just comment on sport matches and supporting my team and treating social media as a big mind reading device and I do not want to know what’s on everybody’s mind, and if something is negative happening on it I try not to dive into it as in the past, if it’s not going to bring a positive change I will not comment or write about it, HINT “I started to check if Oprah Winfrey is saying something about an issue it means it worth the time and effort” because she and my dad are the only to people I take their action and words seriously because I am who I am because of them.  

Last but not least, our mental health is affected by what’s happening on social media whether we notice it or not, for the amount of information we receive every second of the day, the web became an open space to all kinds of energies and thoughts, we are losing our mind because the whole world became a big responding device. Starting from 2022 I decided that I am not going to check my social media page all the time I will take a break every once and a while, I will still check sports news, I will still post some fun, positive, or freaky things, but I will not let it consume my life and if something worth the retweet and replay I will do, believe me, your mental health and peace of mind are more important than anything, the world on social media can wait, plus you can change the world through your work and how you use your energy and talent.

“When you are dissing someone else, you’re actually dissing yourself” RuPaul

ShoroK♥♥

Now more than ever, we need to protect ART and creativity to protect humanity.

I am going to write about the latest social and global censorship, backlash, and canceling culture, and why at moments becomes a dangerous movement that could help dictatorships and extremely religious communities to eliminate minorities like liberals, feminists, LGBT. Their excuse will be “that every community has the right to fight back anything that the majority find unsuitable” liberals, open-minded, and seculars will pay the price.

 Let me tell you why it is dangerous, Art is the air that we all breathe, the fresh air that takes our pain away, for one or two hours we travel somewhere else away from our nightmare, some of us escape from the systemic dictatorships were even speaking among friends get you questioned and silenced by physical torture or psychological torture, sometimes in the middle east members in the community will ask the leadership of the country to silence artist, writers, actors or movie creators and implement a maximum penalty. ART is not just a melody and a couple of lyrics and audience dancing, millions of people around the world view ART, Music, Movies, and Books as a form of therapy to their trauma, Art is a form of escape for people with depression, anxiety, and those living in a war zone, to people experiencing domestic violence their only escape is Art, Music, Movies and Books, Art is a form of escapism to those experiencing physical illness too.

In the middle east Art is a requirement to break the ice with the western world but not as an important part of life to move forward, people and leaders are approaching ART like it’s just museums, halls for concerts, and a couple of songs here and there, and not as a billion-dollar industry. In the Middle East, they think that spending millions and billions of dollars on sport, real-estates, and commerce is the only source of wealth. Spending millions on concerts to show the rest of the world that we have artists, but the content is censored, the lyrics are censored and monitored and some songs are created in one day, the melodies are not well done, we don’t treat art and artists as a fundamental part of society, we don’t treat writers, musicians, and actors as if they can change the world and as part of a cultural movement and part of our civilization, unlike the western world and how they view movies and music, for example in the Western world if an artist is creating a new album the whole world stops for it as if it’s a national security matter, and movies and shows sets are protected as if it’s a military base. In fact, Artists around the world are part of the society shaping process, celebrated by presidents and royals, their funerals held by leaders and royals all around the world but the Middle East. 

 Here is an example of Middle Eastern talents whose work changed the world but ours: 

 { Naguib Mahfouz (Nobel Prize Winner) stabbed with a knife, Gibran Khalil Gibran ( The Prophet) some middle eastern countries banned and burnt his books, Taha Hussein whose work influenced writers and intellectuals, he’s known for leading “modernist movement in the Middle East and North Africa” he was attacked and threatened,   Fairuz is The greatest artist of our time we don’t treat her like how legends are being treated around the world and have been attacked so many times and her songs were banned by religious groups in some countries,  Omar AL SharifWadih El Safi (Middle Eastern Frank Sinatra), and last but not least Yusuf Idris.

Art from my own experience is being killed by everyone pulling the trigger on it and threating it to become something else, when I used to get bullied at school and called all kind of racist slurs from the N word at school, to one guy telling me that he will sacrifice a lot by being with a black girl because of how society view interracial relationships, being called all kind of names every day from middle school and later in life, as a feminist I was forced out of the family because I became an Artist and I became a shame to my extended family, people within my community started to call me names like whore and prostitute because I’m an artist and basically they didn’t like the way I was dressing-up, and the way I speak my mind, later on I was attacked by a professor at the collage that I attend by saying “feminists are at the bottom of society ladder, and they are the garbage of the society and those women must be taken down and take their voices from them” at that time with all the things that was going in my brain it was too much and the only things that helped was my DAD taking actions against him because everyone in the class room thought it was normal and there is nothing wrong with what he said, and also what helped me the most is Music, Creativity , Books and Art , I used to watch all kind of movies and shows, reading all kinds of books, and for an hour or two it took me to place where I really felt happy, and I felt like it’s a free world far from the mini prison I was living in. When it comes to art no one within it should have limits, I used to watch every kind of movies the ones that I agree with or the ones I extremely disagree with, what I liked about the Art world is that it’s free from all religious and political interference (in the Western World of course), it gives creative people a place to be themselves away from the harsh reality, as a Muslim Black Feminist girl after participating in a musical reality show I’ve seen the worse in people, people used to call me all night long to bully me and telling me all kind of dirty words, how I will never get married and no one will ever love me, I used to have sexual harassment phone calls with men masturbating on the phone and close family members regularly throw hateful words about feminists. And as Always Art, Music, Movies, and Books saved my life, my depression and anxiety, and panic attacks came from the real world not from Art, Movies, and Music, even though a producer and a director created and show about me in Bahrain he only changed my name, of course, the show starts with a girl coming back from a musical reality show from Bahrain, he portrayed me as a girl who sleeps with men in condos, from man to man, filthy and has no manners and h even kept the same haircut, everyone in the country knew it was about me because I was known for that haircut, even with what I was going through, I thought to myself it’s just a show and it has nothing to do with who I am because I have the freedom too, to show who I am for real through my art, yes, I disagree with a lot of movies, shows, books, and music videos but Art is free from all kinds of restriction and judgment that’s what gave me hope that I have a place to be myself without being judged or brought down. 

I will explain to you why restricting and censoring ART is dangerous because everyone is going to use it the way they feel is right from their point of view and take advantage of it by dictators and conservative groups, why?, because (everyone thinks that they are doing the right thing from their perspective and what is right for me, is wrong for someone else) sometimes we get lost in the way of making things right, thinking that the only way to fight hate, darkness, and evil powers is through hate and darkness, thinking that only darkness can defeat darkness, bullies and trolls are can only be stopped by bullying them back, when I was younger I thought that I need to bully my bullies to defeat them but later in life, I started to educate myself by reading books and healing myself I realized that wars, hate, darkness will never defeat evil but will make it more powerful and I might lose the kind, the companionate person inside of me, you became exactly what the thing you’re fighting against without knowing that you are becoming it. The danger of censoring and restricting art in the Western World will make leaders and extremely religious groups to take it as an excuse to silence everyone, by saying that art is harming society in real live and its destroying the nation values, and it happened so many times to me and my dad ( whose the only feminist I know in my life, he’s the one who taught me how to be a one) he had so many messages on social media asking him to remove my photos because it’s inappropriate in our society plus that it’s not acceptable to post it, claiming that it’s sabotaging the general values (by the way he never took removed those photos),my dad had a phone call from a senior official in the country asking him why he didn’t ask for permission before participate in a that musical reality show, the same reason why so many girls from the region withdraw from the auditions, because the officials in their countries won’t allow them, also because the members in their communities protested against tem participating in the show, so my dad didn’t back down and I became the FIRST GIRL from the GCC to participate in that show, my dad response to the senior official was “I will not kill my daughter’s dreams just because group of people in society felt like controlling my daughter’s future” my dad faced a huge backlash some people asked him to ask me to withdraw from the competition and member of the family were angry and stopped speaking to my parents and coming to our house, my cousins stopped hanging out with me because I quote what one of my aunties said to her daughter “ if you hang out with her people will assume that you are a whore exactly like her”. And it was just the beginning.  

 So many schools in the country canceled musical and acting classes because people in the community felt like it’s better to teach girls how to cook, clean and teaching them religious values than some sinful class, they canceled all the art classes and replaced them with gardening and cooking classes, even the cinemas have been censored in the middle east , nowadays they edit movies and cut them to the point you don’t understand what happened in the movie, they cut intimate scenes , hugging and kissing scenes and if the women in the scene is wearing lingerie it get cut, so basically we are left with few scenes, most of the movies don’t get the editorial cut because the committee in the ministry of information affairs that is responsible about the movies is controlled by a religious members, there been discussion about banning some books because it will disrupt society , for example my dad’s books were attacked in mosques and he’s been called a “dirty atheist” in a clear direct threat, when it come to me, as a female artist I’ll be questioned by the officials if group of religious people find my work unsuitable , to the point where I could be sentenced to sometime in jail for a music video or the wrong dress I wore on the red carpet. 

 We are here to build this life together, lets disagree and change the world through healthy conversations, let us create Art that includes everyone, let’s not wish for each other’s death. And we are already setting under a Mental Health bomb that one day will explode and we will have a new pandemic bigger than Covid-19. 

 And to the Middle Eastern communities let’s make Art our priority to fight extremism and hate speech, by separating art from religion, and just like the infrastructure Highways, Metros, Hospitals, and bridges, Art is the most important infrastructure toward modern civilization.

Again, Art is the Air that filters all the chaos and noises in our daily lives, it refreshes our lunges from the social pollution we breathe through our minds, Art is like forests it helps to recycle the air we breathe and fights the deadly emissions that come from cars, coal mines and the Carbon Dioxide that comes from hundreds and thousands of harmful sources. 

Last but not least, I will end this post with two powerful quotes from two great women, and this is what they think of ART:

The first quote By Toni Morrison  

“There is no civilization that did not begin with art, whether it was drawing a line in the sand, painting a cave, or dancing.”

The second Quote By Oprah Winfrey   

“I fundamentally believe the right to anyone to use their imagination and their skills to tell a story if one author I felt, one artist is silenced we’re all in danger of the same”

ShoroK ♥♫

For Once let’s not be serious and let’s take a break, for a Self-Care reasons and to let go of all the bad news we hear all the time, Covid-19 and all the chaos around the world and around us as individuals, these are the movies and shows that made me and some of them changed me forever. And please make sure to write in the comments your favorites movies and shows that I must watch.

Enjoy you freaks

ShoroK♥♥  

These Are My All Time Favorite Shows

  1. Oprah Winfrey Show + Super Soul Sunday + Next Chapter + Master Class
  2. Gilmore Girls
  3. 24
  4. Mad About You
  5. Ally Mcbeal
  6. lizzie McGuire
  7. Friends
  8. Pretty Little Lairs
  9. When They See US
  10. Bernie Mac Show
  11. Elementary
  12. Suits
  13. Game Of Thrones
  14. Buffy The Vampire  Slayer
  15. Sabrina The Teenage Witch
  16. Everybody Loves Raymond
  17. The Office
  18. La Casa De Papel (Spanish Drama)
  19. Self-Made
  20. Bodyguard
  21. The Sinner (season one)
  22. Seinfeld
  23. Jane The Virgin
  24. The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air
  25. How To Get Away With Murder
  26. New Girl
  27.  Seinfeld

These are my all time favorite Movies

  1. Titanic
  2. Long Kiss Good Night
  3. The man in the iron mask
  4. Sleepless in Seattle
  5. You’ve got mail
  6. Goal
  7. The Hours
  8. Mission imposable
  9. All the kings men
  10. Eat  Pray Love
  11. Revolutionary Road
  12. Carmel
  13. Gangs of New York
  14. Ocean 11
  15. Harry Potter
  16. 27 Dresses
  17. Adams family
  18. Body Of Lies
  19. The Devil Wears Prada
  20. The Hunger Games
  21. Precious
  22. John Q
  23. Saving Privet Ryan
  24. Man of Honor
  25. Forest Gump
  26. Clueless
  27. Matilda
  28. Hook
  29. Speed
  30. Face/ Off
  31.  Jurassic Park (OG)
  32. Noting Hill
  33. Bridget Jones Diary
  34. Sense and Sensibility
  35. Pride and Prejudice
  36. Friday
  37. Shaft
  38. The Silence of The Lambs
  39. Heat
  40. The Godfather
  41. Coyote Ugly
  42. Pretty Women
  43. Sherlock Holmes
  44. Man On Fire
  45. Don’t Say A Word
  46. Just Married
  47. Man In Black (OG)
  48. Taken
  49. Charles Angels (OG)
  50. Meet The Parents
  51. Big Mama
  52. Alice In Wonderland
  53. Panic Room
  54. The Da Vinci Code
  55. Inception
  56. Erin Brockovich  
  57. Revolutionary Road
  58. Cast Away
  59. 300
  60. Fever Pitch
  61. Ray
  62. Iron Lady
  63. The Hurt Locker
  64. The Of The Rings
  65. The Kings Speech
  66. Darkest Hour
  67. Roma
  68. The Grand Budapest Hotel
  69. Hugo
  70. Fences
  71.  What’s Love Got To Do with It
  72. The Bodyguard
  73. Pursuit of Happiness
  74. Selma
  75. The Help
  76. Hidden Figures
  77. 8 Miles
  78. Lake House
  79. John Wick
  80. Fifty Shades Of Grey
  81. The Equalizer
  82. Contratiempo (The Invisible Gust)
  83. Lions For Lambs
  84. Valkyrie
  85. Downfall
  86. Julie And Julia
  87. Gone Girl
  88. Maleficent

For a while, I wanted to write about women progress in the 21stcentury, to question whether we are in a place where we can go to sleep knowing that we finally can say that things are right in the world for us and others and funny how life sometimes works, I was in a bookshop, and, I picked one of Virginia Woolf novels and something in my heart told me to take it back and buy a book about two of her famous essays A Room of One’s Own & Three guineas the first essay is about women and fiction, and the other is about women financial independence, education and how women are treated in masculine societies. 

I started to read it, and, from the first chapter, I thought a woman in 1928-1938 must be so brave to have these kinds of ideas and not fearing the response. Virginia Woolf is a badass woman, a straightforward woman. She never sugarcoats the truth. She’s asked to write about women and fiction. Her analysis comes from the idea that how can a woman become a writer when she doesn’t have her own home, room, office, and space, how can women are only represented in fiction through a male point of view ?! Virginia insists in her essay that even some female writers couldn’t succeed at writing good novels because they have been suppressed and controlled by their societies, their perception about women and men are prejudice, these essays opened my mind even wider about so many other issues women are still struggling with, yes we progressed in many ways like the right to vote, represented in politics, artists, writers, thinkers, activists, teachers, philosophers, doctors and we are in a place where we have the freedom to say, wear, love and chose the profession we love. But the question that keeps knocking on the back of my head “Are we 100% free individuals” equal to men. Am I allowed to be alone without being labeled as lonely stubborn, serious, and single miserable woman or girl? Overprotected, killed, or cast out without protection as a punishment for her relentless and fearless personality.

In 1928 Virginia Woolf talks about how men are judged and labeled by their profession CEO, soldier, professor, royal, etc…, while women are judged by the men they are married to, or being the daughter of a rich man, or her dresses are handmade in Paris and not judged by their profession, did it change today, yes, and no, yes women are CEOs, athletes, students, engineers, and artists yet judged as best dressed CEO or the engineer married to a rocket scientist or first ladies serving next to the president and not even paid for their role, and the writer whose married to a billionaire, no matter where we go in life and how much we earn we are still seen as objects or wondering about the reason why she is single, she’s single because she devoted her whole life for her career, who wants to be with that kind of a woman, but when a man does the same thing he’s seen as a genius and the woman who wins his heart is a great woman, so the whole world starts checking her background describing her as powerful woman, she headlines the news and websites asking “who is the woman who stole his heart and made him settle down” and how morning talk shows make her wardrobe as their top priority, but single achieving woman is miserable, uptight, and nightmare or crazy and bossy.

The next point is when Virginia Woolf discusses women’s own home, space, room, and income because Virginia Woolf was criticized for being materialistic and not focusing on critical issues, like discussing important matters regarding her community. In response, she questions those opinions by asking educated men how can women be more productive and cleaver when they don’t have their own space to think, read, study, and having their income? 

How can women be equal to men when they are portrait as incapable of doing things on their own? Did things change in the 21st century? YES and NO, yes in the western world women can live by themselves, move to a different city if they want, but still be told that they need a man to do the heavy stuff which they can hire someone to take care of it, and a man to protect them from stalkers or burglars, but when a man chose to live on his own no one tells him those things, he’s never asked about how he’s going to eat or clean the house?! Because unconsciously he knows for hundreds of years that he can hire someone to cook, clean, and take care of the house for him, instead of telling women all the time that they always need help they must tell them that we all need help when we’re living alone. In the Middle East, the idea of living alone itself is bizarre, even most progressed men refuse this idea, just like what Woolf stated how can women create music, fashion, books, study medicine, etc… when she’s forced to live with the family until she gets married. So marriage becomes her only escape from the chaos around her plus she can’t have her own library, office, living room, and garden unless she has a husband, or else doomed to live with other souls, suggesting that she need to be alone in her own space to create, think, and meditate or to have her own breathing space she is seen as a loner, rebel, ungrateful of the blessing called family gatherings, and seen as a shameful woman for wanting to live alone because living on her own is a sin.

Do you know why men feel the need for a big family, a wife, and a need to settle down and have quiet time with their children and grandchildren? Because their whole life they’ve been given the freedom to travel alone, to explore without the fear of being hurt, party, try new things without a companion around, so by their thirties, forties, fifties and sixties they are done from partying, exploring, so tired that all they want is peace of mind, quiet home with the kids and the wife, while on the other side women are kicking their ass off, working three times harder so they don’t become prisoners to the men in their lives, earning their own money and working so hard to have their financial freedom, so they don’t have to live under their men’s command.

Virginia Woolf tried to explain “how women are given income but upon condition, to agree with society or the men who run their society”, in 1938 she was talking about men supporting universities and writers, and women choosing their own profession and those women who chose to stay at home to raise their children are not supported and they are mainly dependent on their husbands or partners and they can’t ask for an income from the government because they don’t do anything for the public but their own families, what did change today, women who chose to stay at home and raising their children they don’t get enough respect and they don’t get the right treatment because according to some staying at home is an easy choice, she works 24/7 to raise the world future leaders, future professors and help to nurture them for the future, we are in the 21st century and we still don’t agree on respecting them, to this date staying at home mothers are still financially dependent on their men it and it doesn’t matter whether the amount or not.

What about supporting women’s issues, when only society and specifical men in power need women’s votes and for patriotic events such as nurses, typing reports at war times, why do we still live in a world where women become entirely important around the elections, around war times, when two male politicians campaigning against each other they use us to gain votes to defeat each other and why do they only remember us when they need our votes or support around war times, our patriotism is just needed around specific times.  

 Virginia Woolf pointed out at “silent voices” who support women equality movement but they do it behind closed doors, those men are worse than the ones whose fighting women equal rights, how can you express your full support in private and when your voice is needed you become invisible, what makes it even harder when some women are against gender equality and other women are scared of men’s rejection because strong women “feminists” are undesirable as if they been infected by a deadly disease. When it comes to this issue nothing has changed, the only time they care about women’s issues is when it’s the election, or for their businesses to look diverse enough to generate more income and some countries appoint women in high positions without the actual power that comes with it to convince developed countries, for example: appointing her as a CEO or as a party leader, or the speaker of the house put in mind that the board of the company, the party is controlled by the majority ( Men) they can bring her down whenever she refuses to comply to their orders and as a party leader she is appointed by the majority (Men) in the party they can/will take her down if she tries to change any policy because men will fight each other but when it comes to depose women from their position, they become allies so they can remind women that they will always be inferior, the speaker of the house is up there because people in power wants the system to look diverse enough, but looking around the company and parliaments you notice that women are the minority and the majority are men.  

Women are giving the right to vote, but in some regions they are forced to vote on government legislations which forces them to become slaves to their masculine communities, how can a women vote when all the candidates are conservative, anti-feminist, against gender equality, against women civil rights, candidates who support the separation of the genders in universities, movies theaters, insisting to pass a conservative dress codes laws, which allows men to wear what they want and forbidden women from dressing up freely, candidates who believes that when a man kills his wife, sister, mother to protect the family’s honor he serve a short amount of time in jail, and candidates who forbid women from marrying a man from other religions, yes in the 21st-century women are not allowed to marry the man they love if he practice a different religion, but men are allowed to marry women from different religions, while it’s illegal for women to marry men from other religions, men are given government support and a home, while women get nothing, plus the marriage in illegal, treated like a second class citizen. candidates who believe that when a man rapes a woman it’s her fault because she is not properly dressed, how can a woman with the right to vote, would vote for candidates who live in the medieval age.

Women in conservative communities and countries are physically abused and violated, and what women hear when their fathers, brothers, husbands physically abuse them “He is your brother, your husband, your father and he carries the family’s honor” And when men file for a divorce they use women honor to win the case by questioning her honor and the way she dresses, or how she stays out late and that she has male friends from work calling her that he doesn’t want his kids raised by a woman like her, and the court guarantees him the full custody of the children, “Not to forget religious countries don’t allow women to file for a divorce”.

Bottom-line we are human beings we came to this world as equals, we are not enemies, my dad is a man and a feminist, he is the one who told me to watch Oprah Winfrey if I want to be the kind of woman I aspire to be he is such badass father, who gave me all the freedom to be myself and treats me equally to my brothers, showed me how to be one of the strongest woman out there and to be the BOSS OF MY OWN LIFE (LOVE YOU DAD) He protected me from the men in the family by setting a rule that if they ever tried to hurt me he will kick them out of the house, i have been labeled with so many bad names, looked down at, always trying to create trouble to remind me that I can’t be a strong woman around them, they talk down to me because I am a strong woman, but also the man who defends me is my DAD, he’s my miracle in this masculine society, a society that can’t handle a strong independent woman who speaks her mind, a woman who wants to be respected by everyone and to be free of all strings attached to her religiously and socially. We need to teach women and girls at schools on being strong, independent, taking their own decisions whether wanting to work or staying at home mothers and wives or wanting men to provide them with everything. We need to give girls the right books to read so they can develop their own perspectives. We live in the 21st century and some individuals won’t accept that we are both human beings equal in rights and responsibilities. Finally, I think we need more badass women like Virginia Woolf, Emily Bronte, Elif Shafak, Maya Angelo, and Oprah Winfrey to lead the upcoming generation. 

ShoroK♥♥

“Peace is not just the absence of conflict; peace is the creation of an environment where all can flourish, regardless of race, color, creed, religion, gender, class, caste, or any other social markers of difference. Religion, ethnicity, language, social and cultural practices are elements which enrich human civilization, adding to the wealth of our diversity. Why should they be allowed to become a cause of division and violence? We demean our common humanity by allowing that to happen.” Nelson Mandela

OK let’s be honest for once, you might hear and see in movies and western mainstream reported you that we are a bunch of rich people throwing money like candy, or we are uneducated, extremely religious and Homophobic, terrorists and war is everywhere, some people fully believe the first one and others fully believes the second one.  The truth is the majority of us are the product of both worlds, and some in the middle with liberated and open-minded, and educated wanting to live a free life without hating the other and we want to live in peace with each other.

 Why it’s fucked up to be a Middle Eastern?!  We never had peace in the middle east, when I was 2 years old 1990 there was a war, and in the mid-90s after couple of years there was explosions in my country that my dad had to take out of my ballet dancing class because extremist  groups threatened to explode ,  2003 there was another war and bigger than the previous ones and as a 15 years old being taught how to run to the school shelters while hearing the warning sirens, and told that we might stay at the school for a week because of the strikes, the a amount of people with PTSD in the middle east is skyrocketing and we don’t have time to deal with it because we are always to next thing and next war, and let’s talk about political assassinations and activists, 2005, 2006, 2010 and 2015 etc… let’s not forget that we are always anxious about it might be my country next, so we are always living on the edge and if religious group take the power, minorities like “ liberals, people who believe in secularism and girls like me pay a huge price”.

Since I was a little girl all I ever remember is war, war, and war, extremism, and dictatorships using people religious beliefs and ideology to stay in the power, the hate speech against each other, I grew up in a household where everyone was accepted, my mom and dad had friends from every background, race, religions Christians, Jewish, Hindu, etc… And all sexes and sexuality, I grew up loving everyone and only treat them as human beings and if you’re not kind you’re not welcome into my life or you use hateful speech or discriminate others that’s what I’m going t judge you for; until I started going to school and that I realized that 90% of Middle Eastern people are different than my household.

  Let’s be honest for once again, Anti-Semitism is a common thing here,   since we were little kids you heard your teachers and 90% of the society here will tell you that telling you that Jewish and Christians are the enemies, the western world is the enemy, all my teachers my whole life I was hearing this from school, religious homes would use the most famous quote every week’s speech, to burn them and to kill them and to hurt them, in the same time we have religious sects and each sect’s leader tells their people that the other is the enemy so they start killing each other, and most of the political leaders use that for their own interest, so countries here they burn books accusing them of Blasphemy and in the name of fighting atheism. 

We are living in the 21st century the barriers are gone you can’t content This generation “Millennials”  we want freedom, enjoying art, music, creating, living a free life, reading the books that we choose, we want to be part of the bright future where we can tweet, follow famous people, cheering for our favorite teams, falling freely in love, go on a date, walking the streets without the fear of being killed or judged for what you’re wearing, we want peace with other nations regardless of what’s your nationality, history, color, believes and sexuality and just judge each-other based on kindness and good deeds.

In the end, I want to sit at a table and have a conversation and laugh with everyone, whether you are Arabic, European, American, Latino, Russian, Israeli, Palestinian, Asian, Iranian, African, and Australian I want all of us to share happy peaceful conversations about life, living all of us in peace, share music, creativity and create the world that the old generation couldn’t build, let’s stop hating and judging and drive the wedge even further say that as a young generation in the middle east we want to be able to live the full freedom,  I want us to love one another as human beings away from politics, I want us Millennials to be able to sit on one table without the judgment we have that media and politician tried to tell us about our difference and becoming scared of each other. I just want this current generation to sit at one table with all our differences and leave the past behind us, leave hate behind us, leave all the political harmful thoughts that they planted in our mind about the other, the fear of the other and the fear of the unknown nations, and that’s why extremisms been winning from both sides. And Stop celebrating the imaginable victories, and fake peace, leaders in the region need to stop using their political and personal agendas by using historical and religious events to gain or sustain power. Stop living in the past.

We All Deserve to be loved and respected because LOVE IS LOVE

“Today we should all ask ourselves: What have I done to improve the surroundings in which I live?” Nelson Mandela

ShoroK♥♥

‘A free press is the unsleeping guardian of every other right that free men prize; it is the most dangerous foe of tyranny. Where men have the habit of liberty, the Press will continue to be the vigilant guardian of the rights of the ordinary citizen – Winston Churchill”

“I fundamentally believe the right to anyone to use their imagination and their skills to tell a story if one author I felt, one artist is silenced we’re all in danger of the same – Oprah Winfrey”

If you have the kind freedom were you wake-up every morning freely choosing your own path and expressing your own thoughts, and you get to pick the kind of relationships you want to have in your life, you dress up the way you feel that day and not fearing what and how people in the streets will look at you or being sued for “inappropriate”, and speak your mind.  Then you’re blessed.

If you live in a country where you can speak your mind, to be a journalist and to write about what makes your country a better place, if you can live a life were you have the freedom to expose corruption and whoever behind it and not fearing the people in the top, then you are privileged to have that kind of freedom because for too many people it’s not even an option.

I do insist on discussing this issue because it matters to have a voice politically and socially, both are equally the same, because journalists without their papers and pen and a individuals  without their  personal freedom is like being a bird without a wing.  In some countries this right is protected by the constitution and it’s in the background of their daily lives, even the freedom of living, the kind of life you live   without fearing the laws and what would society say about you, furthermore, in the Middle East society punishes you even harder to the point where you get murdered. So every night you go to bed thinking that your opinion or your choices in life could get you killed or detained or experiencing domestic violence.

I am privileged that I grew up at a house where I’ve been given  the freedom to live the life I want, but not privileged enough to live in a society where I  can be myself without the looks and the judgment and even the hate, I can talk about my opinion but I can’t express it loudly because politically I’m forbidden from even following the wrong account on social media  and if your account is monitored or even re-tweeting or liked or following the wrong person i would get questioned by the authorities, because you are sent a text message from the authorities warning you that if do that you will be questioned and punished, and I choose not to vote in the election as part of my freedom to protest I will be deprived from my right to have so many privileges in the country.

If you post the wrong photo or you wear the wrong dress according to societies standard is inappropriate to wear, artists here in the middle east they are living the glamorous life and speaking their minds but they can’t cross the boundaries, it doesn’t matter what’s your message you can be strong and out spoken but deep-down you know it’s not possible to be like the western artists the way you dress or even speak,  you’re just lying to yourself, even  if  you think the opposite way, deep down you know you can’t talk about politics, sex and religion. You can act, sing and give speeches about your success but you will never have the freedom to be your full authentic self.  Otherwise you will be questioned and suspended by The Artist Unions.

As for journalist you can speak about the weather and how the country is so beautiful and the things that won’t get you in trouble , but you can’t cross the line that the authorities drew for you , you can’t expose corruption in the country, you can’t speak about a political scandal, or inquiring about the millions of dollars that  disappeared, you can’t ask about where did the donation money disappeared , you can’t write about what can be done better for the people in the country, because it’s seen as criticizing  the authorities and you could  be tutored or questioned in the attorney general office and you will be labeled as traitor.

At the end all I can say is that history is always moving forward even when it feels like it’s moving backward, sometimes history slows down so you could catch up, until it moves fast again and whoever stays behind will stay behind, no matter who you are or what kind of authority you have, because the universe’s dynamic of the don’t work on behalf of anyone, it works on its own specific and calculations. Move forward and adjust to the change or you will be left behind with the darkness and chaos.      

ShoroK♥♥

To all my single Ladies, 

Lately, I’ve been noticing girls, women feeling less about themselves and falling for the new trend where everyone is getting married, girls are having babies, and couples in love sharing their lives on social media and just sharing the happy times and the cute moments making it look like if you don’t have that you’re alone and you’re not living the “#lifegoals”, people are having babies and making it look like it’s cool on these platforms, young girls feeling like they want that too but all that is just a false expectation, having babies is a not cute it’s a huge responsibility, getting married is not cute it’s a responsibility too all these videos out there making it look like a ROMCOM movie, the truth is that those people are doing it for the views and money, and most of time for the sponsorships, so STOP QUESTIONING YOUR JOURNEY AND PATH.

I know the world is going through a lot and I know that it might not be that important to some, but life is moving forward and daily life is not pausing, people are getting married, breaking-up, cheating, and new people falling in love everyday even during COVID-19, so I’m writing this post to every girl, women whose being single and not being bothered by it, but even unbothered single girls are not being left alone.  Let’s start with some Movies, ADs, magazines and even when you’re having a normal human conversation with people at work is too much sometimes it feels like people are bothered that you’re not concerned about when you will meet the someone, and everyone has a mission to find you the ONE, even when for the million times you say “I know I’m going to meet the right person in the right time” makes them even more motivated to find you, someone. The funny thing is when people keep pushing that old myth which is an old news to me the “ you can’t b single and happy, you have to go out and put yourself out there” it’s one of the most disgusting opinion, first of all I’m not a bottle of water on the shelf I need to be picked up, second of all why it feels so unrealistic to those in a relationships and marriage that single ladies are not happy, so I decided to write this post to clarify it for once and for all  to those put all their power to force girls and women to be miserable and lonely until they find that someone, and those people succeeded at two things one by making girls and women feel scared and anxious about their body clock  that time is ticking and if your thirty or twenty eight and you still didn’t meet the one, then when are you going to have the right time to have children because you can’t just meet someone and  immediately marry them and have kids, that’s  why so many girls are rushing to meet someone to get married so by the age thirty she have kids and Voilà she feels accomplished.  It’s the narrative that society creates in young girls mind, that if you have the right job, the right husband and two beautiful kids with a picture perfect frame then you’re accomplished the ultimate goal, and then after years girls and women they find themselves alone in the wrong marriage, and now she thinks that something is wrong with her and that she’s miserable.

Let’s correct this, and throw away all the past judgment, before that. there is nothing wrong with dreaming of having a family, kids and getting married and wanting that is supper healthy the same with being single and feeling fulfilled and taking you own time to find the right person and walking into a relationship with steady steps, you don’t rush anything taking your own time, the thing is that after a while you realize that things are not how society is trying to show them, being with the right person in the right time is way better than meeting the wrong person in the wrong place and time. Mentally we are programmed to be scared of being alone, to celebrate birthdays, new year’s eve and holidays alone is scary lonely and that you are not trying so hard, let me tell you from a personal experience when start taking time to think of what you want, where you want to go, and how you imagine your life it will be less scary, first of all, if you have the right family that one thing you should think about it that you’re not alone if you have the right friends and they love you for who you are you have one more reason to be less alone and if you have the right dream, job and plan you are not alone and to find your companion in this journey will be the universe job, not yours because these things happen on its own time, the more you resist it the more it’s difficult to accept it. Especially LOVE when try to force it becomes even more painful. Second of all start the journey of taking care of yourself, not just what movies suggest to wear your best dress putting makeup and go out to meet someone, that’s called forcing it taking care of yourself is by loving yourself fully without a partner validating your worth, put some music dance on your own, watch your favorite movie, read books that will make more curious about life and what’s beyond dating, kissing and having sex, all the things that we stress out about, order your favorite meal and eat it with love, create a routine that suits your personality and soul, prepare yourself a cup of coffee and set on the balcony or by the window and start to say all your thought and fears to God and the Universe, go into an inner journey think about meeting the right person in the right time will be perfect for you.

Kids are one big issue for me, when people give you that look of OMG you don’t think of having babies, or when what happens in movies and most of the time happens in real life this annoying phrase “ when you become thirty mother instances starts to kick in” WHAT THE HELL, traumatizing young girls and women by this idea is what gets people panicking and starting to look in the wrong directions, no there’s nothing wrong with you if you still don’t feel those mother instincts, the same thing with relationships it will happen in the right time because your journey is unique and even if you’re not thinking of having children that’s normal too, nothing is freakin wrong with you. The other thing that makes me angry with members of any society is when they tell women and girls that a relationship and marriage without kids is boring and as a couple, you will start fighting each other, let me tell you one thing GIRL if two people fight each other and they start getting bored with each other because they are not having kids, and they start to drifting away from each other that means they are not in it for the relationship and love when you’re in a relationship for a reason beyond the relationship itself you are in it for all the wrong reason because you need to be in it not just to share a space with someone, having kids with and having sex and who the garbage out. No, but you need a friend, companion, and a teammate who won’t leave because things got tough, plus having a partner you can have fun with even when it’s just the two of you. And that’s what COVID-19 proved with the high divorce rates, couples are separating because for once they spent weeks and months together under one roof, and it was a test whether people were together for love and commitment or just to have a presence of a soul in their lives. 

Last but not least, Girl you are enough on your own just take leap of faith and as a daily reminder I love this quote by the great Dr. Maya Angelou:

On Oprah’s Master ClassDr. Angelou said: “I am grateful to have been loved and to be loved now and to be able to love, because that liberates. Love liberates. It doesn’t just hold—that’s ego. Love liberates. It doesn’t bind. Love says, ‘I love you. I love you if you’re in China. I love you if you’re across town. I love you if you’re in Harlem. I love you. I would like to be near you. I’d like to have your arms around me. I’d like to hear your voice in my ear. But that’s not possible now, so I love you. Go.”

ShoroK♥♥

Have you ever felt like you’re lost in-between two worlds and you felt like  you’ve been born in the wrong place and that everything is against you.  Lost in a world where there’s no point of even keep believing unless you move to the next chapter,  and then you realize that the other world will not see you differently. Only because you don’t look like the common Muslim woman you’re spouse to look like for the world to hear your story.

Which in my case that’s what I’ve always felt, lost between two worlds the first looks at me as a rebel and breaking all the social rules, unwilling to obey the cultural and religious rules and uncontrollable because I want to be an artist  just like Lady Gaga, Katy Perry too exposed.  All the doors has been closed in my face because no one wants to get involved with a girl who looks like me, so they won’t clash with society. A middle eastern girl is not allowed to be herself unless i was born and raised in the western world at least i would be too far to create a controversy,  because female artists get in trouble for the tiniest behavior and get punished, it already happened before when in 2007 people from the top called my dad and asked him “why you didn’t ask for a permission before you let her participate in a musical reality show called Star Academy”.

And the other world won’t see me as different because the way i look and how i dress, speak and even live with all my beliefs,  it’s what a normal western girl is , i don’t look like the story that media would report or shine light on my story,  because  i don’t look like the regular Muslim girl that you normally hear about, and i don’t look like diverse enough to sell my music,  because i just look like a western girl not a Muslim Girl. Girls like me in the middle east are lost between wanting to be ourselves and dress, speak, love , think and dream just like any other human being,  we need to be born and raised outside this culture so we can have a chance to make it. Simply because we don’t fit in any category so we are lost in-between two worlds.

Either we shut up and business as usual and we downsize our dreams, ambition and standards, or we move to different places, and get lost in a culture that we’re newly introduced too.

I’m just a girl with a dream ✨  As simple as that.

Shorok❤

Now What?!

It’s been a while since I wrote my last post.  Things have been going too fast and too chaotic, politically and socially, not just in one country but all over the world, and with COVID-19, we are all feeling anxious no one knows when it will end, I know I sound depressed and going crazy, aren’t you??. Yes, there’s good in the bad, that’s how I’m killing the negative vibes, all the bad energy at the end we are human, thinking about all the paused dreams and all the personal dreams that we all have, and all the happy events that got canceled, so many lost their loved ones for this vicious virus, people canceled their wedding, having kids, moving to a new house and waiting for that new job.

All the times we felt lazy and unhappy to go to work and run errands etc. now it became a luxury.   I am an introvert staying at home is my thing, but now that I’m forced to stay at home, I can’t do the normal things like shopping for food, I can’t go to my chiropractor and physiotherapy sessions to treat my back injury, going to the bookstore is not an option I know I can order books online but the feeling to stroll in the bookstore with that unique book’s smell.

Going to the hospital is a nightmare getting the regular flu is scary because you need to go to get a PCR test to know whether you have it or not.   I can’t imagine what dating is in this situation how people are going on dates when most of the restaurants are closed they only do home delivery, even if it’s possible to sit in a restaurant the whole time you will worry not to get infected by the virus, Uhhh it’s walking dead going real, what about just getting together with your friends it’s no longer an option, and we only saw each other for four times in the last eight months, just like online dating me and my friends are face-timing each other.

I am a musician, and I can imagine what other musicians are feeling? For an upcoming artist, it’s scary because your whole life hard work is toward one dream is to sell full stadiums around the world. For an artist to sell your Music you need to have live shows, to travel the entire world, and to be in the studio.  I keep wondering how music concerts are going to be soon, from full stadiums to empty ones.

I know this post might be all over the place just wanted to check-in with others to see how everyone is doing and to tell someone that you are not the only one whether you’re an extrovert or introvert it’s not about loving to stay at home or not, but the feeling that life is restricted, you can’t control the outcomes like going to the hospital, buying books from the bookstore, grabbing a coffee with your friends, planning for a vacation, planning your career, going to college, graduating, that job interview and just having the option to do what you want whenever you want.

My silver lining is my DAD, my books there are too many that I can read without finishing all the books in the world, working out, writing songs, watching movies, and planning for after COVID-19 so the minute it ends, I have a plan that is ready to be implemented.  I’m just taking it day-by-day, and living in the moment is the one thing I learned that it’s the most important thing, have no idea how precious these seconds that your heart beats, you’re alive and healthy.

ShoroK ❤ ❤ ❤