‘A free press is the unsleeping guardian of every other right that free men prize; it is the most dangerous foe of tyranny. Where men have the habit of liberty, the Press will continue to be the vigilant guardian of the rights of the ordinary citizen – Winston Churchill”

“I fundamentally believe the right to anyone to use their imagination and their skills to tell a story if one author I felt, one artist is silenced we’re all in danger of the same – Oprah Winfrey”

If you have the kind freedom were you wake-up every morning freely choosing your own path and expressing your own thoughts, and you get to pick the kind of relationships you want to have in your life, you dress up the way you feel that day and not fearing what and how people in the streets will look at you or being sued for “inappropriate”, and speak your mind. Then you’re blessed.

If you live in a country where you can speak your mind, to be a journalist and to write about what makes your country a better place, if you can live a life were you have the freedom to expose corruption and whoever behind it and not fearing the people in the top, then you are privileged to have that kind of freedom because for too many people it’s not even an option.

I do insist on discussing this issue because it matters to have a voice politically and socially, both are equally the same, because journalists without their papers and pen and a individuals without their personal freedom is like being a bird without a wing. In some countries this right is protected by the constitution and it’s in the background of their daily lives, even the freedom of living, the kind of life you live without fearing the laws and what would society say about you, furthermore, in the Middle East society punishes you even harder to the point where you get murdered. So every night you go to bed thinking that your opinion or your choices in life could get you killed or detained or experiencing domestic violence.

I am privileged that I grew up at a house where I’ve been given the freedom to live the life I want, but not privileged enough to live in a society where I can be myself without the looks and the judgment and even the hate, I can talk about my opinion but I can’t express it loudly because politically I’m forbidden from even following the wrong account on social media and if your account is monitored or even re-tweeting or liked or following the wrong person i would get questioned by the authorities, because you are sent a text message from the authorities warning you that if do that you will be questioned and punished, and I choose not to vote in the election as part of my freedom to protest I will be deprived from my right to have so many privileges in the country.

If you post the wrong photo or you wear the wrong dress according to societies standard is inappropriate to wear, artists here in the middle east they are living the glamorous life and speaking their minds but they can’t cross the boundaries, it doesn’t matter what’s your message you can be strong and out spoken but deep-down you know it’s not possible to be like the western artists the way you dress or even speak, you’re just lying to yourself, even if you think the opposite way, deep down you know you can’t talk about politics, sex and religion. You can act, sing and give speeches about your success but you will never have the freedom to be your full authentic self. Otherwise you will be questioned and suspended by The Artist Unions.

As for journalist you can speak about the weather and how the country is so beautiful and the things that won’t get you in trouble , but you can’t cross the line that the authorities drew for you , you can’t expose corruption in the country, you can’t speak about a political scandal, or inquiring about the millions of dollars that disappeared, you can’t ask about where did the donation money disappeared , you can’t write about what can be done better for the people in the country, because it’s seen as criticizing the authorities and you could be tutored or questioned in the attorney general office and you will be labeled as traitor.

At the end all I can say is that history is always moving forward even when it feels like it’s moving backward, sometimes history slows down so you could catch up, until it moves fast again and whoever stays behind will stay behind, no matter who you are or what kind of authority you have, because the universe’s dynamic of the don’t work on behalf of anyone, it works on its own specific and calculations. Move forward and adjust to the change or you will be left behind with the darkness and chaos.

ShoroK♥♥

To all my single Ladies,

Lately, I’ve been noticing girls, women feeling less about themselves and falling for the new trend where everyone is getting married, girls are having babies, and couples in love sharing their lives on social media and just sharing the happy times and the cute moments making it look like if you don’t have that you’re alone and you’re not living the “#lifegoals”, people are having babies and making it look like it’s cool on these platforms, young girls feeling like they want that too but all that is just a false expectation, having babies is a not cute it’s a huge responsibility, getting married is not cute it’s a responsibility too all these videos out there making it look like a ROMCOM movie, the truth is that those people are doing it for the views and money, and most of time for the sponsorships, so STOP QUESTIONING YOUR JOURNEY AND PATH.

I know the world is going through a lot and I know that it might not be that important to some, but life is moving forward and daily life is not pausing, people are getting married, breaking-up, cheating, and new people falling in love everyday even during COVID-19, so I’m writing this post to every girl, women whose being single and not being bothered by it, but even unbothered single girls are not being left alone. Let’s start with some Movies, ADs, magazines and even when you’re having a normal human conversation with people at work is too much sometimes it feels like people are bothered that you’re not concerned about when you will meet the someone, and everyone has a mission to find you the ONE, even when for the million times you say “I know I’m going to meet the right person in the right time” makes them even more motivated to find you, someone. The funny thing is when people keep pushing that old myth which is an old news to me the “ you can’t b single and happy, you have to go out and put yourself out there” it’s one of the most disgusting opinion, first of all I’m not a bottle of water on the shelf I need to be picked up, second of all why it feels so unrealistic to those in a relationships and marriage that single ladies are not happy, so I decided to write this post to clarify it for once and for all to those put all their power to force girls and women to be miserable and lonely until they find that someone, and those people succeeded at two things one by making girls and women feel scared and anxious about their body clock that time is ticking and if your thirty or twenty eight and you still didn’t meet the one, then when are you going to have the right time to have children because you can’t just meet someone and immediately marry them and have kids, that’s why so many girls are rushing to meet someone to get married so by the age thirty she have kids and Voilà she feels accomplished. It’s the narrative that society creates in young girls mind, that if you have the right job, the right husband and two beautiful kids with a picture perfect frame then you’re accomplished the ultimate goal, and then after years girls and women they find themselves alone in the wrong marriage, and now she thinks that something is wrong with her and that she’s miserable.

Let’s correct this, and throw away all the past judgment, before that. there is nothing wrong with dreaming of having a family, kids and getting married and wanting that is supper healthy the same with being single and feeling fulfilled and taking you own time to find the right person and walking into a relationship with steady steps, you don’t rush anything taking your own time, the thing is that after a while you realize that things are not how society is trying to show them, being with the right person in the right time is way better than meeting the wrong person in the wrong place and time. Mentally we are programmed to be scared of being alone, to celebrate birthdays, new year’s eve and holidays alone is scary lonely and that you are not trying so hard, let me tell you from a personal experience when start taking time to think of what you want, where you want to go, and how you imagine your life it will be less scary, first of all, if you have the right family that one thing you should think about it that you’re not alone if you have the right friends and they love you for who you are you have one more reason to be less alone and if you have the right dream, job and plan you are not alone and to find your companion in this journey will be the universe job, not yours because these things happen on its own time, the more you resist it the more it’s difficult to accept it. Especially LOVE when try to force it becomes even more painful. Second of all start the journey of taking care of yourself, not just what movies suggest to wear your best dress putting makeup and go out to meet someone, that’s called forcing it taking care of yourself is by loving yourself fully without a partner validating your worth, put some music dance on your own, watch your favorite movie, read books that will make more curious about life and what’s beyond dating, kissing and having sex, all the things that we stress out about, order your favorite meal and eat it with love, create a routine that suits your personality and soul, prepare yourself a cup of coffee and set on the balcony or by the window and start to say all your thought and fears to God and the Universe, go into an inner journey think about meeting the right person in the right time will be perfect for you.

Kids are one big issue for me, when people give you that look of OMG you don’t think of having babies, or when what happens in movies and most of the time happens in real life this annoying phrase “ when you become thirty mother instances starts to kick in” WHAT THE HELL, traumatizing young girls and women by this idea is what gets people panicking and starting to look in the wrong directions, no there’s nothing wrong with you if you still don’t feel those mother instincts, the same thing with relationships it will happen in the right time because your journey is unique and even if you’re not thinking of having children that’s normal too, nothing is freakin wrong with you. The other thing that makes me angry with members of any society is when they tell women and girls that a relationship and marriage without kids is boring and as a couple, you will start fighting each other, let me tell you one thing GIRL if two people fight each other and they start getting bored with each other because they are not having kids, and they start to drifting away from each other that means they are not in it for the relationship and love when you’re in a relationship for a reason beyond the relationship itself you are in it for all the wrong reason because you need to be in it not just to share a space with someone, having kids with and having sex and who the garbage out. No, but you need a friend, companion, and a teammate who won’t leave because things got tough, plus having a partner you can have fun with even when it’s just the two of you. And that’s what COVID-19 proved with the high divorce rates, couples are separating because for once they spent weeks and months together under one roof, and it was a test whether people were together for love and commitment or just to have a presence of a soul in their lives.

Last but not least, Girl you are enough on your own just take leap of faith and as a daily reminder I love this quote by the great Dr. Maya Angelou:

On Oprah’s Master Class, Dr. Angelou said: “I am grateful to have been loved and to be loved now and to be able to love, because that liberates. Love liberates. It doesn’t just hold—that’s ego. Love liberates. It doesn’t bind. Love says, ‘I love you. I love you if you’re in China. I love you if you’re across town. I love you if you’re in Harlem. I love you. I would like to be near you. I’d like to have your arms around me. I’d like to hear your voice in my ear. But that’s not possible now, so I love you. Go.”

ShoroK♥♥

Have you ever felt like you’re lost in-between two worlds and you felt like you’ve been born in the wrong place and that everything is against you. Lost in a world where there’s no point of even keep believing unless you move to the next chapter, and then you realize that the other world will not see you differently. Only because you don’t look like the common Muslim woman you’re spouse to look like for the world to hear your story.

Which in my case that’s what I’ve always felt, lost between two worlds the first looks at me as a rebel and breaking all the social rules, unwilling to obey the cultural and religious rules and uncontrollable because I want to be an artist just like Lady Gaga, Katy Perry too exposed. All the doors has been closed in my face because no one wants to get involved with a girl who looks like me, so they won’t clash with society. A middle eastern girl is not allowed to be herself unless i was born and raised in the western world at least i would be too far to create a controversy, because female artists get in trouble for the tiniest behavior and get punished, it already happened before when in 2007 people from the top called my dad and asked him “why you didn’t ask for a permission before you let her participate in a musical reality show called Star Academy”.

And the other world won’t see me as different because the way i look and how i dress, speak and even live with all my beliefs, it’s what a normal western girl is , i don’t look like the story that media would report or shine light on my story, because i don’t look like the regular Muslim girl that you normally hear about, and i don’t look like diverse enough to sell my music, because i just look like a western girl not a Muslim Girl. Girls like me in the middle east are lost between wanting to be ourselves and dress, speak, love , think and dream just like any other human being, we need to be born and raised outside this culture so we can have a chance to make it. Simply because we don’t fit in any category so we are lost in-between two worlds.

Either we shut up and business as usual and we downsize our dreams, ambition and standards, or we move to different places, and get lost in a culture that we’re newly introduced too.

I’m just a girl with a dream As simple as that.

Shorok

Now What?!

It’s been a while since I wrote my last post. Things have been going too fast and too chaotic, politically and socially, not just in one country but all over the world, and with COVID-19, we are all feeling anxious no one knows when it will end, I know I sound depressed and going crazy, aren’t you??. Yes, there’s good in the bad, that’s how I’m killing the negative vibes, all the bad energy at the end we are human, thinking about all the paused dreams and all the personal dreams that we all have, and all the happy events that got canceled, so many lost their loved ones for this vicious virus, people canceled their wedding, having kids, moving to a new house and waiting for that new job.

All the times we felt lazy and unhappy to go to work and run errands etc. now it became a luxury. I am an introvert staying at home is my thing, but now that I’m forced to stay at home, I can’t do the normal things like shopping for food, I can’t go to my chiropractor and physiotherapy sessions to treat my back injury, going to the bookstore is not an option I know I can order books online but the feeling to stroll in the bookstore with that unique book’s smell.

Going to the hospital is a nightmare getting the regular flu is scary because you need to go to get a PCR test to know whether you have it or not. I can’t imagine what dating is in this situation how people are going on dates when most of the restaurants are closed they only do home delivery, even if it’s possible to sit in a restaurant the whole time you will worry not to get infected by the virus, Uhhh it’s walking dead going real, what about just getting together with your friends it’s no longer an option, and we only saw each other for four times in the last eight months, just like online dating me and my friends are face-timing each other.

I am a musician, and I can imagine what other musicians are feeling? For an upcoming artist, it’s scary because your whole life hard work is toward one dream is to sell full stadiums around the world. For an artist to sell your Music you need to have live shows, to travel the entire world, and to be in the studio. I keep wondering how music concerts are going to be soon, from full stadiums to empty ones.

I know this post might be all over the place just wanted to check-in with others to see how everyone is doing and to tell someone that you are not the only one whether you’re an extrovert or introvert it’s not about loving to stay at home or not, but the feeling that life is restricted, you can’t control the outcomes like going to the hospital, buying books from the bookstore, grabbing a coffee with your friends, planning for a vacation, planning your career, going to college, graduating, that job interview and just having the option to do what you want whenever you want.

My silver lining is my DAD, my books there are too many that I can read without finishing all the books in the world, working out, writing songs, watching movies, and planning for after COVID-19 so the minute it ends, I have a plan that is ready to be implemented. I’m just taking it day-by-day, and living in the moment is the one thing I learned that it’s the most important thing, have no idea how precious these seconds that your heart beats, you’re alive and healthy.

ShoroK ❤ ❤ ❤

BLACK LIVES MATTERS Socially & Systemically

“I can’t breathe” won’t go out of my mind, I’m dreaming of it and I’m having dreams about Gorge Floyd’s daughter Gianna Floyd saying “Daddy Changed the world” over and over, also I can’t forget what his wife said about how he won’t be there for her graduation and walk her down the aisle I feel all kind of physical sensation and so angry that we still live in a world that judging others for their color, social static, and religion. Writing about racism is hard and so painful specially if you faced racism, what makes me angry is that when I respond to it in every day’s life people responds to me with “you are being politically correct” first of all I don’t like being politically correct because it means that you’re a saint and you never made a mistake in your life and you will never make one and being politically correct means that we live in a world where there is one opinion and one dream to all of us, Anti- Racism is not being politically correct it’s an actual issue and real problem. There is systemic racism and social racism too, and how it’s in our everyday life some are unseen because it’s not filmed or even recognized by certain societies in the Middle East as long as it doesn’t harm anyone physically it means it’s not racism.

In the Middle East, it starts with parents making fun of their kids when they are little kids by telling them and I’ve heard it so many times “Don’t stay out under the sun for too long or else you’ll become black”, it’s the most disgusting thing to say to your children, then kids will start crying because they’ll say to them “look you became black “and it’s just the tip of the iceberg. In the Middle East social racism goes by without a blink of an eye because no one Is bothering themselves to teach their kids or society that it’s wrong, kids grow up thinking that the “ N” word is fun to say, only because we never had systemic segregation, it been always social segregation the law doesn’t punish you for being black but society dose, since the beginning black people work at the rich and royal family’s homes they won’t sell them or buy them they are raised in their homes as helpers!!! “ Like it’s not slavery” what they think is that it’s not like the U.S or Africa where the segregation was protected by the law and police so it’s not racism and that’s what makes people in the Middle East now and then sleep peacefully. In the present time, I get so angry all the time from artist putting a black face and wearing African outfits with intention to make it look like it’s fun not knowing the history and their music videos will get millions of hit’s, and in drama show’s people will wear black face like it’s funny not with intention to show something historical, and I know many will say that oh no it’s not that big of a deal we are peaceful and not racist, then let me be specific how about when an Algerian black girl won Miss Algeria everyone talked about how ugly and wondering how did she won she’s not white, how about when Meghan Markel married Prince Harry everyone one thought and said it out loud that she’s black she’s not at the royal family’s level, and friend of the family even sent a photo that shocked me that this person been in my life for years he sent a photo of a white women saying that Harry should marry this beauty not that blackish ugly actress, it’s Middle East unspoken rule of royal families, that the queen or the princess the one who will give birth to the future king should be white it’s unspoken rule but we all know about it secretly and even if someone from the royal family marries someone black they keep her hidden.

From my personal experience where do I even begin, I was bullied my whole life in school for being black for example when I was seventeen I met a guy and we started talking and things were going very well we were talking about life marriage and kids and he out of nowhere said “No we can’t get married because you are black girl you can still be in my life beside my wife” I remember I was sick to my stomach and I ended things, and after a year I have meet a guy from another Arabic country we were talking just like the first time and he again out of nowhere said “You know I will sacrifice a lot for being with black girl because you know how our society sees it” in that moment my head was spinning how can you be that racist and still telling me you love m , what I realized years from that situation is that we are not just uneducated but we are not even seeing it as a condition that been passed through our DNA not knowing that we have it and that’s the problem, other incident when I was sixteen one of my mom’s extended family and they come from mixed race family, I was talking about this guy I like so much this person responded with “You know that guys like him they don’t marry black girl like you” even when my dad is black and I’m black there’s no logic, and other situation at school when I was fourteen I was having a random conversation with a white girl I still remember her and she’s famous here in my country I said to her “ Oh why did you cut your hair” she responded with “At least my hair will grow but you can’t change your black color”, one other girl every morning she will say the most disgusting racist slangs like whenever she sees me walking with a white girl she makes sure to say something like “Wash your hands and her color will come out your hands”, years from that I was on a famous musical reality show and just when I thought that I will never hear a racist comment again and I am sure it’s been recorded one of the guys who’s been responsible for cleaning the place said to me “Shorok your task is cleaning the floor and when I declined he responded with “ The dirt won’t even show on your hand” meaning that it won’t be won’t notice because of my color” I remember I was so angry of him because the whole time he’s so nice to me and out of nowhere he said that why? he kept apologizing but I don’t think he would’ve apologized if i didn’t get mad, another incident was when we were in a bus and it was so dark and one of the guys said no problem Shorok can smile and it will light the bus and again this guy was so nice to me all the time and protects me, all these incidents happened with people from different Middle Eastern and Arabic countries, not just one country, all the time racism is our DNA that it’s not even noticed as racism it’s because even black people are feed by their parents or society that they are less like it’s a common thing to hear black people in the Middle East to say how they want to marry a white woman to recreate the family’s genetics, it’s a known as a joke here. And even when I came out of that musical reality show the comments on the internet because social media wasn’t that big then twitter was not even big in 2007, the comments were about my color and how ugly I look and that I look disgusting and that I don’t deserve to be there and most of them they are coming from Arabic Middle Eastern people.

I never believed racism is that big in the U.S when I was younger I thought that it’s there but it’s not that big because it’s America the place of the “American Dream “ until I went there and the most unbelievable thing happened to me and my dad a white driver from a famous transportation app saw me and my dad and he immediately said “Oh this ride will take too long and along the way I’ll pick up a too many passengers and it will be crowded I said fine because it never hit me that he doesn’t want to take us it was so obvious and he kept giving us excuses, I looked at me and dad who told me to ask him to stop the car and step out of the ride I was so shocked because until that moment I didn’t see it as a big issue like it’s just in some southern states, to be honest from that moment I started to educate myself about racism in America and I believed that the police brutality in the U.S is bigger than what the media reporting, because of what happened to me and he wasn’t even a police officer and to be honest from what I read, I was too scared even to go back to the U.S especially when I started to see all the black men being killed by racist cops because my dad is black and what if a police officer stops him in the airport or the streets and kills him, I am that sacred that I really considered never going back to the U.S even that I love being there, the people are amazing I have a lot of friends there but what if one time a police officer feels the need to stop my dad based on his color and get him killed I can’t even imagine.

The other issue, we need to learn is to stop making it a celebrity thing, when celebrities become bigger than the issue and using it by their PR teams to gain more fans or be more likable is to make sure to jump on every serious issue and make it look like it’s just the entertainment business issue, I like and admire people like Oprah Winfrey and Denzel Washington they never act with their EGO to use their celebrity statues to be likable with the intention to make their name bigger and more, they truly want to heal the nation and to make a difference in the world while doing it behind the scenes and they don’t add fuel to the fire, I have never in my life heard Denzel Washington bragging about his achievements or making sure that his name will be on every entertainment news just to feed his ego even Oprah she always make sure to say her opinion without letting the world of social media or the news networks bully her into silence, she makes sure that the right people feel the change not just the people in the entertainment business I will never forget her speech in the golden globes when she talked about the ME TOO movement I quote her

“ But it’s not just a story affecting the entertainment industry. It’s one that transcends any culture, geography, race, religion, politics, or workplace. So I want tonight to express gratitude to all the women who have endured years of abuse and assault because they — like my mother — had children to feed and bills to pay and dreams to pursue. They’re the women whose names we’ll never know. They are domestic workers and farm workers; they are working in factories and they work in restaurants, and they’re in academia and engineering and medicine and science; they’re part of the world of tech and politics and business; they’re our athletes in the Olympics and they’re our soldiers in the military.”

, basically they want the real change not the “In the moment attention”. And one of the things that made me walk away from politics, is how politicians because they will always say the right things to get elected or things the crowd want to hear, because in these important defining moments politicians will always jump to the issue to serve their political agendas driven by their egos and how they can use it for their interest, knowing that behind closed doors they don’t give a dam about it and they take it as an advantage to get people on their side and not as a moment to truly change the world.

At the end, what I want to say is that racism first starts at HOME, Hating one another starts from Home, if it makes you angry start to correct your own home, hating each other’s based on our Religion starts from HOME, political difference and killing each other for politics and politicians at home richer than me and you while sleeping with a peaceful conscious because the know at HOME someone teaching their children that the other part is Evil so it starts at HOME, when someone disrespects someone with a racial comments it starts with you and me at HOME, change come when we raise our children to have healthy opinions and good manners it doesn’t matter what you think is right or wrong this generation is feed with accounts on social media fans bullying each other’s, political extreme ideas from all sides and we have millions and millions of people all they have is fear, hate and a revenge mentality. Let’s remember it all starts from one HOME to millions of HOMES filled with Racism, Sexism and so many issues. How do I know that it starts from HOME because I was raised to never judge or see people with their color, religion, nationality and sexuality, and I’m so proud of how I was raised to be open to love everyone the same way. Remember, it all starts in your own HOME, you can set all the laws but you still can’t control what happens inside peoples HOME.

Finally, I will end this article with one of my quotes “We were all humans until race disconnected us, religion separated us, politics divided us and wealth classified us.” ~ANONYMOUS

To all the souls we lost REST IN PEACE. Justice will be served sooner or later.

ShoroK♥♥

First of all, I’m an introvert and I find my peace at home in the silence away from the crowd, but even introverts are feeling uncomfortable and specially if you live in with your family, it will affect you and your introvert soul and specially if they are not responsible and uneducated enough with the issue.

Before I continue just a reminder I don’t claim that I know all the answers to this issue and I’m just like everyone else I’m trying to survive these hard time specially if you have mental issues and anxiety. Being an introvert and self-isolation is not a big deal to me because I’m used to stay at home all the time, but with this pandemic even introverts are being affected by the uncertainty, it’s the news and the amount of the information we get on a daily biases which is effecting all of us with no exceptions. Rich, poor, famous, etc…. We are all in this together.

I am panicking just like everyone else, I keep searching for the updates, the number of cases and the vaccine trials, hearing the news of how many are dead and how many people are being affected by the virus, it’s more than seventy thousand deaths and more than one million people are affected by it, hearing that some countries don’t even have enough beds to treat those affected, basically the world is in war with an invisible enemy, even the world leaders are confused and shocked, that it’s 2020 and nothing can be done to end this war, this virus forced major cities to shut down, cities like Milan, New York, Paris etc… it’s World War III but this time the enemy is invisible.

It started to trigger me mentally with all the information coming from social media, people around me and specially those who are not taking the issue serious enough and keep going out like it’s a regular flu, it’s an overwhelming, so I started trying some activities to stay positive and to be strong, because no one knows how long this thing will last. These are couple of things that made it little batter, it’s important to mention that this activates and tools are not for everyone, you should ask a professional if you are being treated by one, you can try the things I listed if you think it’s working for you, it includes as follows:

– I tried listing to music and it’d been helping a lot I can skip this nightmare at least for glimpse of time.

-I tried lighting a candle; turn off the lights, and applying a sheet mask while watching something on Netflix.

-Reading a book is one of the most important thing in my daily routine it takes you to different places, beautiful fictional places and some self-helping books that been working as a therapist for me.

-Having a genuine conversation with my dad is one of the best things ever, he knows how to make me relax and to look at things from a positive perspective, telling about his experiences through tough times, without any doubt he’s the right therapist.

-Face timing my best friends have been helpful too.

-Cleaning and organizing the place is helpful too I put some good music while cleaning and doing the laundry.

-Cooking makes me happy and positive, it’s the only time I stop thinking about anything but the meal I’m cooking, I’m so occupied that I won’t scroll throw my phone looking for updates.

-When it comes to news I get my updates from Bill Gates, because he’s the one who warned the world about this pandemic, and he’s aware of all the updates.

Finally I hope you stay at home and to stay safe, for you and for you family, those in front lines nurses and doctors and the vulnerable. P.S Thank You to all the health workers all around the world, you are the real heroes in this war and we are glad that you are sacrificing your lives for us. You deserve all the medals and honors in the world THANK YOU FOR YOUR SACRIFICE.

ShoroK♥♥

Until Death Do Us Apart

Why do we have to lose someone in a tragic accident or crash for us to understand that life is too short and that life is not promised to anyone, why do we need to be reminded all the time that life is more than trends, looks and whose right and whose wrong, why we need to lose big names like Kobe Bryant, Princess Diana for us to remember that we are all humans. Bullying, Trolling each others and the new trend “Canceling Someone ” and creating a negative environment which never serves anyone, and start a campaign to end someone’s career or following someone daily just to comment on every detail in their lives defending it with the most ridicules answer “they put themselves in that position” responding every time that they are famous than they should have a thick skin so they are allowed to bully them and troll them until it’s too late. We are witnessing also trolling non-famous people thinking that no one in the world is immune to any attack then act like they’re shocked and sad that the individual took their own lives, because they couldn’t take it anymore but it’s too late to take it back.

After the tragic crash that took one of the kindest human being ever Princess Diana , the campaign that the press created and even society along and to me i think that press is made by a group of people coming from the society to reflect the public opinion, they followed her, shamed her, bullied her in the press, people used to say that she’s going from man to man even the positive feedback was a pressure on her shoulders because we think that when we defend someone against bullying and trolling which also puts even more pressure on the victim knowing that it’s going to be worse, because the bully will become even more ruthless, And after her death the whole world acted like they were shocked and how it’s too soon for her to be gone , we all thought that the world will change, and that the world will learn from that lesson before it’s too late again. The world only mourn the loss for couple of days and everyone start to speak wisely, and just like that the world went back to the same old habits, picking on people, how they look, who they’re dating, how ugly their looks, fake for having plastic surgery and ugly for not doing anything, and the world always pick a target whether a famous person or not until we lose someone again, we go back to the same circle mourn the dead for days and then go back to the same old habits. Yes we all fell for it because sometimes it seems like it just for fun, nothing is serious it’s just a retweet or a replay that we all share unconsciously creating a negative energy in the world, yes there things that are funny and it doesn’t harm anyone, the most dangers thing is to pick a target and start to bring this person down thinking that we are prophets and we don’t have personal flaws and we never made mistakes, we all made mistakes and we all said something not knowing that it’s wrong or we didn’t have the information or the knowledge about the issue, we all acted somehow like kids. Now we live in an age even if the person didn’t commit a huge mistake and how many times we witnessed this when people and media pick someone and put a target on this person’s back and no matter what they say or do the world immediately makes sure they are attacked and bullied to the point it turns into death threats and hate crimes.

We need to think seriously about this issue because it’s like the climate change there will be a time when the whole world will be living under huge mental health illness crisis because everyone is anxious about every single detail in their lives, this will cost the world great number of souls who we may lose from depression, anxiety and overthinking. Let’s teach our children to be kinder and to have sympathy towards others. Let’s fight bullying, trolling and “canceling” people only because it will give someone couple of RTs, followers, some money and becoming popular for one hot hour. Remember that’s your karma and it will come back to hunt you in many forms and situations.

Finally being kind is sexier and makes you look attractive and will create a lot of positive energy in the world that you will receive a good karma along the way. Yes life is not fun without joking around and laughing but when it turns into a vicious attack and wishing someone harm and death it’s no longer fun it’s a crime. BE KIND

SHOROK♥♥

Seven Reasons Why…

You should take care of your mental health, I suffered from Depression and Anxiety and this is why you should consider help too:

1. You deserve a batter life, you have to be fully alive this journey is yours to experience with self-love and joy, your life is a puzzle and each path , accident and trauma is part of our transformation into a magnificent self, and you need to ask for help if things are too much to handle , and no it’s not weakness it’s the best decision you’ll ever make.

2. Who said you need to look or be the same as the other seven billion people in the world, if you care too much you suffer too much, be your own version of yourself it’s hard at the beginning but I know from a personal experience, believe me the minute you’re free of all the ropes that’s suffocating you like society , family and friends, and you start surrounding yourself with those who make you feel better and accept you the way you are, the brighter your life will be.

3. Your opinion matters, you feeling matters, how you speak and how you dress and show your feelings are important don’t feel anxious every time you want to say what’s in your mind, the truth and the life you carry in you has the right to live and to have it own opinions and dreams, even if it will hurt and people will not like your truth there are so many people who will love your true authentic self.

4. You a force that can change the world with your dreams and vision, you are someone who matters to someone , your smile, heart, dreams and skills might can change the world to a batter future and how you feel now is going to change and you will be the best in the world , just ask the right person for help and the minute you are free you will see how your life and vision is amazing.

5. Your mental health is important to start your own journey not the journey you read or you visit on people social media , or the comments people leave under your photo or the likes, one important thing , two people could post the same quote but one will get millions of likes and the other will get nothing, not because you don’t matter it just means that the first is famous and the other is not as simple as that, we all matter without the like, views, you need to remember that those are fake expectations and standards that the world accepted and everyone is following it, you don’t. No one’s life is valued more than the other, your posts and photos it doesn’t get that much of an attention because the world still didn’t put a tag suggesting that people should, but don’t postpone your journey waiting an outsider to validate your image and joy.

6. You could be an Introvert and you are confusing your love to be alone at home and not going out every night with the idea that you don’t like the world and that something is wrong with you, being an introvert it means you feel at peace away from the crowd, noises, or having big gatherings and dinners, nothing is wrong with you, just like extroverts they feel more alive and happy when they are out with the crowd.

7. Nothing is worth losing your mind over family, friends, fans and others expectations. you should be proud and at peace with who you are because no one will live with you inside of you but you, this is your life and you should live through your own expectations your own growth, because if the world started to love you for who you are then you set the rules not the world don’t let your transformation and growth be tamed by the world media, social media, people go through changes , they grow and you must accept that without fearing the judgment, don’t be the world’s prisoner. and don’t be your own dreams prisoner.

Be your freaking self, Love yourself , and seek help it’s not a weakness it’s your greatest achievement by not giving up on yourself. LOVE

Shorok♥♥

Fuck The Odds 1

Oops did I just write that….

All my life I have been flying against the wind and even when the odds were against me I stepped on them and broke them, since I was little girl until now. The odds says that a black free-minded girl who only cares about enjoying this wild journey called life, who will never have more than what her world offers her, that one day will have her own voice.

Everyone thought and said that i will never be good at school even when I was bullied for my color I used to pass all my classes not by being at the top of my class but I used to pass with fine grades which was mentally challenging, those who bullied me had better grades than me, and at that time they looked better than me because they were white according to them and I’m black, I said to myself FUCK THE ODDS i am going to graduate from high school and I will get the highest degrees and I will be at the top in life, guess what I have Bachelor’s degree in Business Administration and Master’s Degree in Project Management BOOM just like that and those who bullied me most of them didn’t even graduate from college or settled for a mediocre life and jobs, while I became a well-educated girl, classy, sexy , beautiful so in love with myself.

Fuck The Odds when I said that I wanted to become an artist and everyone went laughing at me and I was like OK keep doing it, the joke was on them at the end, I always wanted to be in a reality musical show called star academy it’s the French version of the American idols and whoever gets in is luckiest person around but for political reasons and conservative reasons no girl from GCC ever been in it and even when there were girls wanting to get in they’ve talked out of it because it’s a reality show that air’s 24/7 and cameras following the contestants everywhere from the toilet to bedrooms and everywhere else in the house, plus boys and girls living in the same house, while me and my dad kept it a secret and waited for the right moment to strike and those who laughed at me and said that I will be out from the first week and you know what for a seventeen years old girl that never been on stage I stayed for five weeks and I did become the first girl from to be on that show and I didn’t fear the hate and backlash that I got from family and society. Someone from the high level asked my dad why she didn’t ask for permission, he answered with “well I won’t kill my daughter’s dream for anything or anyone”.

Again the odds are against me, making in Hollywood and show business as a Pop star seems so far, I’m knocking every door, only one person from thousands of people helped me without putting any boundaries on my dreams he’s the best thing that happen to me I will not mention his name but he’s someone who helped me to achieve 10% of my dreams by his support. Others did not because I am unfinished product and what are the odds for a girl from the GCC who’s extremely relentless and yes not to forget a feminist, they prefer someone that will not stir the pot, plus the way i dress and the fact that i don’t take no for an answer.

At the end of day there’s 10% of life that I can’t control is the only thing that could stop me from dreaming and achieving my dreams, the other 90% says that I will make it because I worked so hard from the age seventeen until now and I’m someone who believes in hard work and team work, so this dream is my life main objective. I’m told that I am too much yet the same people invite pop artist that are beyond exposed and well known for their reveling songs and when it’s comes to me it’s too much I quote “Oh no you represent the country” ammm excuse me what about all those events with different artists from everywhere like I said known their open lifestyle. And there is this soda’s company executive in the Middle East whom I emailed him with my project he responded with “that in Middle East they no longer sponsor any artists anymore”, then why the main headquarter in the US asked me to email the Middle East branch to ask them for sponsorship, while knowing that they don’t. But like I said again I will do it again and strike with my success, which I know that when I become a finished product they will call me the pride of the nation. The only away I will get support is if I bend the knee it actually happened someone reached to me and my dad saying she shakes hands with high people and write her demands then she will get what she wants meaning if i bend the knee, which I’d rather die.

Whoever read this post, if you’re a girl that is about to give up on your dreams because of what the odds says let me tell you, don’t freakin give up keep fighting, dreaming and working hard.

ShoroK♥♥

The reason why I’m writing this post is because the stigma that surround this subject and the shame of talking about it, and if you think that we are in 2019 and nothing is off the limits then you live in a dream’s land, so many women and specially young girls whose shy to talk about it or even to buy period pads from the supermarket, hiding it from everyone like it’s a shame stamp on their foreheads.

To say it’s painful is the least the ladies out there you know what I mean to say it’s the most emotional phase of my month is just understating the feeling, everything about it is so complicated and if you think it’s just couple of emotional days will you need to educate yourself. The week before it you get emotional depressed and clueless plus anxious, always hungry you know why but you can’t control it, let me start with the heat of my body no matter how much cold the room is I still feel like my inside in burning, the physical changes like my weight, and my skin becomes so sensitive with acne, and mood swings that I can’t control , keep in mind women everywhere they have to wake up in those same days and put on their brave suit and work hard and pretend that everything is perfect women in banks, Nurses, athletes, mothers with crying babies feeding them, teachers etc..

Then you get your period, the cramps and the pain that comes with it, in that moment i feel like something inside of me is eating me a life, my inside is twisting and my whole body is weak, sometimes even lying in bed is the most painful thing in the world, sweating for no reason, my sense smell becomes ten times powerful that the smell of coffee is overwhelming, I can’t stop thinking for women living alone in that moment with that pain, the weakness, and the fever you get, and waking up the next day putting the strong mask going to work or whatever you need to do, that’s heroic no doubt about, because thinking of food in these days or cooking is like being in prison and cooking is your punishment by cooking for yourself. So when I hear how someone complains that equality is unfair will bleeding for 7 days with that pain and the hormonal changes and actually functioning like a normal human being is disrespectful.

So if you’re a man reading this and you have a women in your life the best thing you can do to make her feel better and closer to each other , cook for her in these days, bring her flowers and chocolate, take two days off to take care of the kids it will mean the world to her, tell her that she matters and that you got her, it’s not about being men and women it’s about having an understanding for each other, and even if you are a friend or a father make sure to take care of her because she does all the time when you need her , when she’s mad or sad it’s because she can’t fight the changes inside of her all she needs is a hug and to feel loved.

ShoroK♥♥