When you think about your life and where you are right now. Do you think of yourself as a people pleaser, or do you live your life the way you really want to live it? even when it’s hard to live your life on your own terms, at least you’re free. Remember one thing, despite being alone on that path, when you fuck with society and social rules, it will get extremely lonely, with that being said you can’t be rude and disrespectful toward others and bully others and say you are not a people pleaser, the meaning behind what I’m trying to explain in this post, is that some social rules are suffocating us, I’m talking about dogmas, and rooted behaviours. For example, your dream job and what sets your soul on fire, who you fall in love with, how you dress up and what kind of life you want for yourself, away from social and religious rules, maybe because I come from a Muslim and an extremely conservative place makes me wanting to break every rule, from the first moment you open your eyes to this life, you are forced to practice one  religion and follow certain social rules.  I’m thankful for my dad, for having a strong backbone, and giving me the freedom to live my life the way I feel it, yet knowing with freedom comes a lot of responsibility, and that’s the price of living your life by your own rules, the responsibility that comes with it.

Learning to live this thing we call life, and the balance we need to have between our social norms and who we really are, sometimes it goes too far, we become people pleaser to the point where it feels like you are in a cult and you have to follow the crowd, even if it’s harmful and hatful, but the idea of being isolated is so scary, you fall in the dark hole not knowing how to come out of it, whether it’s a religious cult or political cult or social cult, you feel like there is a robe tying your hands all the time and you don’t know how to be free.  See that’s not how we are supposed to live through this journey, that’s why I’m thankful for my dad, he taught me from a very young age to always have my own opinion even when it’s hard to be in a room full of people who disagree with me, even if it’s so loud that I can’t hear my own thoughts, he taught me to always have a clear voice even when it’s so dark I have to find a way to light my own candle.

The main idea is to wake up every morning and not regrating being yourself, personally I don’t want to wake up in my 80s with confusion in my soul and heart and finally realizing that I didn’t live this life like I wanted to. I want to be in truly in love, not out of need or just to be with any man just to be in a relationship, I want to have true friendships not just to a big circle so I can be called a social person, there are friends and there are colleges and coworkers, having a genuine people in my life is all what I want.  I have my own political views that are not dictated by any cult or any party, I look for the truth on my own I don’t believe what I’m told about anyone or anything. I do what I love for living, music and movies and art is what my soul craves every morning. Yes, it is hard to be free coming from a Muslim background, which means that I’m not supposed to live it on my own terms. It can become lonely on this path, but here’s the trick, it’s just at the beginning and once you know who you are, and the power that the universe gave you since your birth you will realise that the right people will join you along the road because at the right path your soul will only attract the right companions and spirits. Having one true companion in this journey is more than enough for this lifetime.

ShoroK💜💜