Every Season Has its Own Fucked-up Moment.

Dear readers (with Lady Whistledown from Bridgerton voice) life is all about the ups and downs, you wake up one day and you feel so positive and wanting to conquer the world and you feel like it’s your day, you start with coffee and breakfast with the biggest smile on your face, suddenly; your day starts with one bad incident like the care does not work, then you receive a phone call that there is an emergency, so you need to go as fast as you can, and from there your whole day becomes about running from this location to the other location with no solution in the horizon, and then you feel breathless after a long day, you don’t know whither you can even take a shower or just go to bed, because you can’t even open your eyelids and then all you think about is the next day, you have no energy to run even further or think about anything.

Take what happened in one day and apply it to a whole season. You wake up one day wanting to change your whole life and upgrade your life to the next level, and you take it seriously, and suddenly you get hit by one unwelcome news after shocking news. At the beginning, you feel like you can face it all like a lion, but after a while, fear start creeping in and whispers to you that this is your life it’s all about surviving and running for your life, all you do is surviving from one battle so you can face the next one with no end to the war in the horizon.  You don’t complain, you never make others hear your tired voice, and you never allow anyone to see your suffering or notice your fatigue. You carry yourself with dignity and grace, yet there are people around you who are adding to that weight on your shoulder by complaining all the time, ungrateful. You keep wondering when you will have your moment to shine. You’ve been working so hard your whole life, you keep running in the race, you never quit, even when your whole body is telling you to stop.

But suddenly there is that tiny little voice that tells you to keep walking and keep on fighting for the life you want and need, keep running because the last mile is always the hardest, if your waiting for the meal to be ready in the oven the last five minutes are always the hardest, if your working out for sixty minutes the last three minutes are the worse, and if you’re waiting for the dream job then the last couple minutes are absolutely draining, you feel empty and sometimes waiting for a sign to keep going or not. What I notice and learned from my humble short experience is that every season has it’s own fucked up moment and every human will experience it, it doesn’t matter who you are, you will go through it, every season of your life, and for some it will be hard because you are fighting on many fronts, but I guess this is life we can’t argue with the fact that life is uncontrollable and unpredictable at times, but you get to control what you can control and the rest is up to the universe, as much as we want to change this law, as soon as we realise that the more you resist it, the harder it gets, fight your fight and then leave it to the universe because that’s all you can do. With the belief that good hearts and well-intentioned people always win.

ShoroK💜💜