Let us fucking leave the chaos and pain for a while behind us and come back to it later or perhaps never, and the ones who create chaos will love for us to never live our lives like what they say “misery loves company”, the majority of people are mentally, and physically exhausted and hopeless for a peaceful moment, for once let us close the doors in the face of those who chose chaos as a weapon and play music so loud and dance for real, we are all tired of paying the bills and tired of the demands, add to that all the politicians around the world are going crazy whatever you want to call it they fan the flames of fire and leave us taking it out, then they go back to their large homes, we end up dealing with all the shit they created, right?. They start shit then we are expected to clean up for them, with all the bills, high rent, and basic needs, yet politicians smile with their expensive smile, and just like that they take a break to relax somewhere also luxuries, and we are the ones end up worrying about the bills.

I decided a long time ago to fall in love with my life again and take my power back not just from politics but from society, and to get drunk with this beautiful life regardless of all the shit I have to go through, all the fucked up things life throw at me, getting drunk in books and reading until I’m no longer aware of all the fire out there, this life is a gift I’m not going to let society and the world to decide for me when to be happy and when to cry, or when to speak up and when to raise my voice and when to remain quiet, all I have is this moment and I’m not in control of what will happen next, years ago I used to plan every second of my day, I used to live in the past and future all together all at once, I used to play by the rules, until someone you love get a near-death experience you wake up the slap keeps you awake for a very long time, your ego gets crushed, every moment in life becomes so precious that surviving is all you want in life, no politics, no social rules or others judgment, because when your world is crushing you have seconds to decide either fight back or surrender to the pain and fear. 

Books are the only place I can lose myself inside, living with different characters without feeling the weight on my shoulders to solve the problem because the end is in the author’s hands, books make me feel like the world is just a tiny dot in this universe, no matter how we try to manipulate the outcomes or the process things will always fall into the right place, we argue, fight, and we go to wars thinking that we can change the storyline and the more we force the universal author, the more it hurt and the pain we cause ourselves is unnecessary because we go through hell trying to change it but at the end, we realize that it was supposed to end the way it ended and that’s when I decided to kill my ego and let go of that pain and I started to realize that life is just like novels no matter what I do to change the end its already written.

Getting drunk with music is easy, the second the melody of my favourite song starts to play my brain just begins to relax and my soul starts to dance, if the track and the voice make my heart fall in love with life and not people and not faces then that’s all that matters, this is the reason why I listen to different genres in different languages all that matters that the minute the voice makes my heart beats so fast and feeling the butterfly in my stomach that’s when I know that the song is so good, sometimes it makes me cry and other times I dance with joy I don’t care who is dancing to it or who likes it or not if it makes me fall in love with life it means it is a good song it’s not about charts or billboards to me it’s about how my heart reacts to it, it feels like a good prayer for my soul and that’s why music to me is like a temple I worship a good song that speaks to my soul and heart and makes me forget all the pain in my world.

 What about coffee, that first sip that brings my soul and world to life, I don’t drink it in the morning at all because I don’t consume it to wake my body or to give me a boost, but it’s a magical drink that I love, like a conversation with a friend who understands without any judgment and having my coffee with someone means I care about you, I won’t drink it with anyone I like to have it with someone willing to share a conversation while drinking it and in a quiet place and all the other times I drink it on my own, I don’t drink more than one cup but there are days when I’m so happy that I have two cups because it’s not an addiction to the caffeine but it’s a healthy dose of joy in a cup.

Football oh my love and obsession the day Real Madrid plays is like having an appointment with a therapist or like a magical day I forget everything and anything, football is like visiting a magical land without leaving my sofa, and it feels like I’m at the top of the world, I love the technical part of it and the tactics behind it.

What’s the point of writing this post I just want you to listen to life’s whispers and to get rid of all the small talks and little arguments here and there and all the endless wars you are fighting with others, for others or being a weapon in someone else war and all the useless drama in life it’s all designed to slow you down and one day you will find out that you did it for the prestige, political party, society or even just for attention or for the world to say you are a good person, you will end up losing your life, this experience and a fucking battles you didn’t have to fight in the first place just for the sake of others victory, and end up losing your peace of mind, you end up living without good memories and self-respect.  Get drunk with things that fill your soul with love, joy, and real moments that you can call back when times are dark and stand up for your values and beliefs without losing the main goal, which is to live while being drunk with the things that feed your soul and body, chose healthy things that will get you high with real memories.

ShoroK ❤️❤️