Every once in a while, we often visit our past even when we are at the top of our game we still go back to the moments we felt changed the course of our lives, the number of times we noticed that we are visiting the past and had to wake up to remind yourself that it’s in the past and how many times you caught yourself visiting your youthful years and reliving a moment remembering all the details of what happened as if you can fix it or alter the outcomes, but then you realized it’s out of your control, you have to accept that it happened that you don’t have the power to go back and change what happened, Letting go of your past is letting go of your younger illusions, personally, when I think about it now that I am thirty-five years old, I find myself laughing about how on earth did I allow myself to believe that these ideas are facts, how did I let those loud voices around me make me doubt myself.

What I mean by youth illusions is the ideas we all had throughout our teenage years and young adult years about everything in life and the illustrations we carried all the time about love, family, and friendships by the way some of us are still holding on to those images from their younger -years assuming that it’s the only images they get to carry throughout this journey yet some of us managed to get rid of it for once and for all except holding on to the lessons.

Youth illusions means all the times you thought that everyone has a life but you, everyone seems to achieve their life goals but you, you feel like you are just sitting there stuck and that life is not treating you well, you sit on your wounds and keep looking at the wounds like it’s going to last forever, and then you keep bleeding not knowing how to accept the idea that { yes life fucked you up and yes there are bad people around you and they hurt you} but it’s not okay to sit there forever looking at those wounds waiting for someone to heal you, people will move on and will even forget about hurting you, and sometimes you need to learn how to ask for help and reach out to those who care about you, and if you find yourself alone you need to learn how to stand-up alone and to trust that you can survive on your own, and recognize that you are on the right path to achieve all your dreams and every time you felt like everyone seems like they got their shit together what you are unaware of is that they have their own insecurities and struggles too, what you really need in that moment is to learn how to stay present and walk on your own path and keep fighting for your dreams because as long as your breathing and fighting it is impossible and against nature for someone to work so hard yet fail, what I learned is that when you put your heart and soul into something you never end up losing or failing, you might stumble here and there or facing a momentarily defeat but no one ever worked hard or believed so bad in their dreams has end up not winning.

Youth illusions also mean all the moments you thought that you were alone and that there was something wrong with you or your dreams, all the moments you felt guilty about dreaming big and that you needed to dream less just to fit in and to live a mediocre life just to please others ego or others vision of how your life should be, all the long nights and all the times you told yourself that you need to let go of your dreams because you felt alone, after all, you are the only one in the room with big dreams, and you are crazy to believe in your potential and feel like you are egoistic for dreaming big and then grow, you get to look back thinking to yourself {why on earth did I feel lonely when I was younger, now that I look back at all things I achieved I feel thankful that I didn’t give up on my dream just because I felt isolated at that time in my life}.

Youth illusions also mean all the moments you thought that the pain was going to last forever and one moment will last forever, all the things you are experiencing are going to last forever because everything seems like collapsing all at once, your friendships and family also failing to achieve your goals and your love life is a crisis and the world around you is dark. Add to that your body image has affected your self-esteem while school was not going well. You feel isolated as if its forever, but let me tell you that things will not be fucking like this forever, you will figure things out because you are born for it, and once you decide to keep going, you going to realize later when you look back to remember all the times you thought that you will not make it until the end and all the times you felt like life is smashing you down, you will end up being amazed by your ability to make it through.

Youth illusions are also about when you are in your twenties and thinking that you need to figure out your whole life in just ten years and the thought that if you are not wealthy or successful and, in a relationship, it means that your life is just a waste. Your twenties are vital to your growth you must let go of the expectations. Expectations will destroy you physically and mentally and believe me when I say that our twenties are about slowly discovering ourselves and enjoying it like an adventure. You get to learn how to be a resilient and disciplined person, and you get to fall in love and get your heart broken to learn how to make gold out of it later in life. In your twenties, you need to know that rejection is not the end, that there are so many ways in life to get what you want, and how sometimes you give it your all and still fail at something while those who didn’t work hard as you did ends up getting the job but then you get older enough and look back and be grateful that it didn’t work for you because your calling is higher than just that opportunity, you will be thankful for all the closed doors because it was nightmares disguised in opportunities.

ShoroK❤️❤️❤️